An Open Letter to My Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,

I suppose you are wondering why I'm writing. Don't worry; I'm wondering that too! It seemed like a good idea of something to do right now, and so here I am. Some days I wonder if you’ll think me odd for writing you this letter before meeting you.  However, you will be marrying me, so I’m sure you already think me odd for countless other reasons.

It is now 2013! I have gone through another year without you in my life. Some might read this and say, “Give it up”… Shooooot, I have even thought about taking matters into my own hands. But in those moments of weakness it’s because I neglected to think about the fact that in my “singleness”, God is preparing me for YOU and YOU for ME!

 You know time has become such an odd concept as of late.  It drags while speeding by and I’m not sure what to make of it while being frustrated at its slowness and amazed by its speed. But I thank God that I’ve had some amazing friends by my side through all this.  New ones and old ones alike.  I've learned so much through all of this too. Love, I’m afraid that I need to go through a lot of healing and refining before we’re ready for each other.  I have so many issues and fears and broken places and baggage that I need to get rid of before we come together.  Because You don’t deserve to have to deal with any of it.  I don’t want to come into our relationship broken.  That makes for a broken relationship..I want to give you the best me that I can be with Jesus Christ flowing throw me in everything I do.  I want to be baggage free for you.  Because I love you.

I don’t care what your job is. I don’t care how much money you make or how nice of a house you have. I don’t care if you aren’t rich. I don’t want to spend our marriage obsessed with finances. I don’t care if we’re rich or poor or right in the middle. But I care that you trust God with your money. I care that you be willing to go wherever He leads us. I care that you be passionately seeking Him out all the days of your life and I care that you would be a dedicated father to our children. I want money to be the last deciding factor in our marriage. Whatever we lack, God will provide the rest.

I feel relieved writing this to you and I can confidently go into this year & say that it won’t be long before you and I are ONE. While we are apart God is making me into the wife that you need and He is making you into the husband I need. It is tough at times but know that the wait is well worth it. God has not forgotten about you and I. Know that things will not always be this way, God will perfect that concerning you and I. Continue to strive to be all that God has called you to be and the rest will follow! See you soon.

Love always and forever,
Your Future Wife